The first time Ariel Castro raped Michelle Knight, she says, he threatened to smash her face with a pipe if she screamed.
"I didn't scream," she said in an interview with TV's Dr. Phil McGraw. "I just laid there."
Knight's short stature, spiky red hair and lip and nose piercings belie the backbone of a fighter who can teach others how to survive in the worst of circumstances, say mental health experts who work with trauma victims.
In her first public interview, Knight describes in graphic detail how her kidnapper, Ariel Castro, abused her and tied her up "like a fish."
With apparent poise, she described how Castro abducted her while she was lost trying to get to an appointment. He lured her into his house by telling her he had puppies that he would give her. He tied her up in the basement with rusted chains and put a helmet on her head.
Knight was matter-of-fact as she talked about how Castro tied her up after he lured her into the house.
"I was shocked," she said. "I didn't fight him. I was begging him, 'Please don't do this to me.' He said, 'I can't take you back. Then he threw money at me."
Knight said Castro was obsessed with hookers and thought she was a 13-year-old prostitute. She said he was upset when he learned she was 21.
She wept describing the first of many rapes.
As months went by, she said, she reached a point of not caring if she lived or died.
"I hated him," she said. "I told him he was a monster."
She described beatings in her first year when Castro hit her with poles, punched her in the face, choked her with extension cords, raped her repeatedly and caused her to miscarry the first of five pregnancies when he hit her in the abdomen with a barbell.
Psychologists who work with trauma and sexual abuse victims say the Cleveland woman is an example of resiliency.
"She's a survivor," says Charles Figley, professor of disaster mental health at Tulane University and editor of the Encyclopedia of Trauma. He says she took charge during her captivity, bore the brunt of Castro's attacks and survived.
"Now that she's out, she's taking charge again," he says. By telling her story her way, it's clear that Knight doesn't want to be cast as a victim, he says.
"Here's an audiovisual aid of someone who had been a punching bag and here she is standing on her feet," Figley says. "We should sit at her feet and learn from her and ask her to tell us what it is like in hell and teach us to be able to survive."
Knight, 32, was kidnapped in 2002 and kept in Castro's east Cleveland home. The following year, he kidnapped Amanda Berry, 27, who was 16 at the time. In 2004, he abducted Gina DeJesus, then age 14.
Castro chained, tortured, beat and physically and sexually assaulted the women in what has been described in news media reports as a "house of horrors." Berry gave birth to a daughter while in captivity.
The trio escaped May 6 when a neighbor heard Berry scream for help.
Castro pleaded guilty and was sentenced to life in prison. He was found dead in his cell Sept. 3.
Before the interview began, McGraw said Knight pierced her nose and lip as a sign that she's taking control of her life. She was direct and calm during the interview, though she grew tearful when she talked about her son or spoke about a particularly bad beating or the isolation she suffered.
She described a life of physical and psychological torture in which Castro left her naked in winter and chained her by the neck. He blamed her for her miscarriages, berated her and threatened to kill her.
McGraw says he was astounded at how Knight has been able to pull herself together since she was found.
"She's doing amazingly well given what she's been through," McGraw told WKYC in Cleveland. "This is not a woman playing like a victim or feeling sorry for herself. This is a woman who gets offended if you treat her like a victim."
Knight, who suffered the worst of Castro's abuse, was described as his "punching bag" by Cleveland police.
Her history is complicated. Before she was kidnapped, she was estranged from her family and lost custody of her 2-year-old son.
In the seven months since she and the other women were found, she's been the most visible, speaking at Castro's sentencing and making public appearances at various events.
DeJesus and Berry also intend to tell their story. The two plan to write a book with Washington Post Pulitzer Prize winners Mary Jordan and Kevin Sullivan.
Figley says taking bold steps to share their experience in their own way is therapeutic for abuse survivors.
Patricia Saunders, a New York clinical psychologist who works with abuse victims, says in the best-case scenario, Knight is speaking out to help others who've been abused. She says in the worst case, she could be turning to the media for attention in place of a solid support system.
There is no way to tell what Knight's recovery will be like, she says.
"It depends on the person and who's helping them," Saunders says.
But one thing is clear, considering that Knight suffered the worst of the abuse, was estranged from her family and lost custody of her son, Saunders says: "I would want to watch her carefully. ... She's had huge losses."
Saunders says Knight's apparent adjustment since she was found may be genuine and lasting or it can crack at any moment.
"I hope she's in intense treatment because she really needs it," Saunders says.